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[09 Jan 2005|01:12pm] |
post the first sentence from the first entry of every month in 2004.
sophie and elizabeth are so cool i have to copy them!! I'm sleepy. What is the geekiest part of your music collection? emma and i just purchased vanilla cokes in preparation for the long night ahead of us. it has been quite some time since i've updated. this essay for scott on a memorable day in my ssfs career is so hard to do. i'm home from camp for 3 days off and 2 nights ...this is the second night. went to my cousin's wedding this weekend, up in hadley, mass ... coincedentally, 5 minutes away from UMass. this is so weird. this whole idea is stolen from marvin from liz lerman dance exchange, so whatever. 3 AM ... and I can't sleep. i just feel sick.
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i certainly do a lot of announcing. ew. that's got to stop.
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[08 Jan 2005|10:52pm] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Sonya
2. Son (crystal calls me that)
3. ??
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. BaobabGarden
2. Wookiee85
3. phlawed
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I try to see both sides of a situation
2. I love kids
3. I try to be respectful to everyone
THREE THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I don't stand up for myself
2. I procrastinate
3. I run away from things that might be good for me
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish
2. Norwegian
3. French
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Dying
2. Heights
3. Snakes/spiders
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Shower!
2. e-mail
3. music
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. UMass sweatpants
2. my ring
3. my necklace
THREE OF YOUR (current) FAVORITE BANDS:
1. The Arcade Fire
2. Modest Mouse
3. Ani
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Getting better grades! Haha
2. A coffee shift at the market
3. Trying not to focus on the future so much
THREE THINGS YOU WANT (and luckily have) IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Honesty/communication (Same thing in my mind)
2. Trust
3. Loooove! (And fun!)
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I like goats.
2. I try to eat granola and yogurt every day.
3. Moose are my favorite animal.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Friendship
2. Good hair
3. Muscles
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE SAME SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Nice eyes
2. Smile/Laugh
3. Good conversationalist
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. fight people (physically)
2. bite my ear
3. get mad at little kids
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. dancin'
2. hiking
3. reading/writing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. go see my girlfriend
2. go to sleep
3. go dancing
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. Teacher
2. Therapist
3. Working in children's theater
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. India
2. Ireland
3. San Francisco
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Travel
2. get married, have a family
3. teach some kids something worth knowing
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[03 Jan 2005|04:09pm] |
Angel - the diva. You dress to impress, you love
enough to move mountains, and you do it all
knowing that your mortality is right around the
corner. You are loved because you are strong.
Which RENT Character Are YOU?
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-- Eye Color: bluish green
-- Hair Color: brown with reddish bits
-- Height: 5'7" (and a half)
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: libra
-- Your heritage: irish and norwegian
-- The shoes you wore today: i haven't put on shoes yet. but likely my merrells.
-- Your weakness: shopping for clothes, not standing up for myself (is that a weakness?)
-- Your fears: dying without anyone to hold my hand, bad things happening to those i love
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: getting good grades in college, getting married, a good job, and having kids that aren't too fucked up
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: LOL. yes, i am a pre-teen girl.
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "whyyyyy?"
-- Your best physical feature: i dunno. my eyes?
-- Your bedtime: whenever i can't stay awake anymore, usually.
-- Your most missed memory: when i was still small enough that my uncle sylvan could still give me piggy back rides, being in Colorado
-- Pepsi or Coke: diet coke. eew i know!
-- McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonald's
-- Adidas or Nike: depends. either really.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate candy, vanilla ice cream
-- Smoke: nope
-- Sing: love it
-- Take a shower everyday: hell yes
-- Have a crush: on my gehlfriend
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes i certainly have
-- Want to go to college: already doing that
-- Want to get married: hell yes
-- Believe in yourself: most of the time
-- Think you're attractive: now and again
-- Think you're a health freak: not by nature, the market makes me think about things though
-- Get along with your parent(s): not a bit
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: nope
-- Smoked: nope
-- Done a drug: nope
-- Had Sex: nope
-- Made Out: yep
-- Gone on a date: yep
-- Gone to the mall?: yep
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope
-- Made homemade cookies: hmm. nope. that should change.
-- Gone skinny dipping: nope
-- Dyed your hair: nope. weird.
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: back in the dizay
-- Been caught "doing something": haha yes
-- Been called a tease: yep
-- Gotten beaten up: nope
-- Shoplifted: when i was a kid i took some peanuts from giant
-- Age you hope to be married: by the time i'm 28 i hope?
-- Numbers and Names of Children: i want to have five. i really do. names ... girls: charlie, rian, erin, kyla, teagan ... boys: noah, liam, riley
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: somethin quaker and outside
-- How do you want to die: i try not to think about that
--What do you want to be when you grow up: work with kids, either as a counselor or as a teacher
-- What country would you most like to visit: ireland, india
In a person you're interested in...
-- Best eye color? ive got a weird thing for brown eyes.
-- Best hair color? darker usually
-- Short or long hair: either, although i really do like short hair
-- height: same height or shorter than me
-- Best first date location: hmmm ... dupont circle is always good.
-- Best first kiss location: doesn't really matter, but i like kissing outdoors. call me a hippie, i know i am.
-- # of people I could trust with my life: hmm. i don't know. very few. i could count them on one hand.
-- # of CDs that I own: toooo many
-- # of piercings: 4
-- # of scars on my body: i have no idea, not many
-- # things in my past that I regret: nothing, really. but i did a lot of dumb stuff this past semester
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-bold the ones you have done.-
I have kissed someone:
on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex.
related to me. - like on the cheek
younger then me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
smaller/shorter than me.
bigger/taller than me.
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.
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[14 Dec 2004|10:50pm] |
You Are a Warrior Soul |
You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating.
You don't give up. You're committed and brave.
Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle.
Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog.
You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods.
You also value honesty and fairness a great deal.
You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding.
You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul
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god, i hate this.
at least at sandy spring i didn't feel like i was doing any work so i had an excuse. here, i'm getting every single one of my assignments done and showing up for all my discussions, but i can't seem to pull ahead. true, i'm not used to multiple choice tests AT ALL, nor am i used to having classes with over 200 people in them, but it's not that i don't understand this material ... i just can't seem to do well on the tests. i feel so stupid. and it's so fucking frustrating, because i know that i'm smart, i know that i have it in me to do well ... somewhere, it's there. my grades on papers (with the exception of philosophy) have all been good, as well as on quizzes in most of my classes ... homework grades have been fairly good in anthro and spanish. i got some bad grades on a couple of my spanish tests but other than that i haven't gotten a single grade below a B in that class. but still, i think i'm going to get some really awful grades this semester ...
anthro: i could probably get a D, a C if i'm lucky ... but probably a C-.
philosophy: either a B or a C ... i've had good grades on quizzes but i got a D on a major paper, and the final exam is multiple choice which i do terribly on.
psychology: a C or a D ... I did okay on the first exam, but the last two have been horrendous. i've done some extra credit work though, which should help.
spanish: probably a B. maybe a B+.
sociology: this is a tough one to call. i got an 89 on my last paper, but a C on my first exam. i just took another exam and i have a book review due on monday. i think i did well on the exam, and the book review should be easy. i've done well on quizzes. i could get as high as a B+ in this class i think.
it's just not what i want. not what i'm capable of. and the problem with going to a giant university like this one is that all the classes are gonna be big until you're a junior. next semester i'm taking college writing which will be an easy A, and acting which is supposed to be an incredible class. however, poli sci and econ are both gonna be huge provided that i get in ... and they're not easy. beyond that, i'm not sure what i'll take, probably a history, maybe a physical science (astronomy likely), and something else ... i don't know what to do.
before any of this can happen, though, i have to prove that i've been vaccinated for hepatitis b, because currently they don't believe me. FABULOUS. ugh.
umass is pissing me off today.
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[17 Nov 2004|06:18pm] |
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i get so annoyed with myself when i get sad and grumpy and everything around me is irritating somehow ... ugh. this is when it's tough to have a roommate, cuz all i really need is some alone time.
gotta write 2 papers in 2 days, one due tomorrow and one due friday. i am quite screwed. luckily neither are terribly difficult.
i miss home.
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its so cold, i don't think my heater is working ...
the yankees lost :( this campus is ridiculous ... there were helicopters circling around campus last night, riot police, over a dozen fires, and huge crowds rioting ... good lord.
why oh why do i have to get up so early!?!?!?!?!
oy.
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[09 Oct 2004|12:36am] |
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so i'm home and that feels pretty good. last night i stayed up until 6 AM ... crystal, vanessa, scottie and i watched "if these walls could talk 2" and "bound." these are both extremely hot lesbian flicks. oh baby. i fell asleep during bound, though, which seems to be typical behavior for me. oh well.
i missed my 8 AM class (i know, its bad, i know i know! but i havent missed this one yet) because i was asleep, and woke up at 11:30 AM, which really was too late because i had a lot to do and i had to leave for my flight at 1. so thus, i didn't turn in my payslip for work and will likely not get paid for this week. oh well ... ugh.
then christina's bus didn't come so i had to drive out to noho to get her, which was fun ... i hate driving into northampton now, april scarred me. i associate the place with her. goddammit, it sucks, cuz noho's the happiest place on earth. grr.
christina and i had fun on the drive to the airport and at the airport, too, even though the plane was delayed for almost an hour. i love that there are little pockets of sandy springers wherever you go ... "walk in the light, wherever you may be .." i love it.
the plane ride down here is so short, it's great. there's about 20 minutes of cruising and the rest is ascending and descending. fabulous. as soon as i saw baltimore, and the airport, i got so giddy and happy. i never thought i'd miss home so much! both christina and i got so excited, it was kinda cute. my dad picked me up and he didn't notice my eyebrow piercing for a good hour and a half. when he did, though, he called me a barbarian. how sweet. my mom didn't like it either, she kept staring at it and commenting on it. grr. i guess they're my parents though and that's their job.
we celebrated my birthday tonight because we probably won't have time later on this weekend ... it was nice. i dunno, my parents are trying to accept this whole gay thing but sometimes they just trip all over themselves. my mom got me calvin klein obsession for men soap, which is all well and good, but then she also got me an enormous men's sweater and turtleneck (i know, so gross) that were truly hideous. she said "well i know you like to wear things baggy. the problem is i feel like i need a unisex section for you!" (oy) ... and then my dad kept commenting on how they should have gotten me power tools. see, the whole thing was kind of cute for maybe a minute but after that it honestly started to hurt. i know they're trying but i've been okay with this for a long time and am not used to being around insensitive people, at least not ones that i'm in close association with. oh well. hopefully they'll figure their shit out.
tomorrow i get to go see gekas at dickinson!!! i am so excited. i have missed her so much and our friendship has been kick ASS since school started, it's actually pretty amazing. it's gonna be good to be with someone who knows me like she does.
i'm also gonna get my hair cut this weekend. you have no idea how excited this makes me. it looks good right now, a little shaggy, but i'm getting bangs and i can't handle that. it's at the point where i can't really use wax without it looking greasy. not that you care.
god, i've missed maryland, believe it or not. small town america has a certain charm that doesn't last too long but you definitely miss it when you leave.
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[04 Oct 2004|06:36am] |
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it's 6:35 AM and i'm watching the sun rise over Amherst with Vanessa and Crystal ... i haven't slept yet. i've been up all night. i didn't do hardly any homework.
im gonna hate myself in about 4 hours.
haha
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[26 Sep 2004|10:38pm] |
LAST...
movie you rented = i can't remember
movie you bought = "antwone fisher"
song you listened to = "just like a pill" by pink
cd you bought = ani difranco, "out of range"
cd you listened to = some mix sara stevenson made me
person you've called = lydia but she wasnt there
person that's called you = i think my mom? or mike
tv show you've watched = i dunno
DO...
you have a bf or gf = no and i dont want one for a long time
you have a crush on someone = not anymore
you wish you could live somewhere else = i like it here in amherst
you think about suicide = nope
you believe in online dating = DON'T DO IT.
others find you attractive = sometimes
you want more piercings = i'm satisfied.
you drink = nope
you do drugs = nope
you smoke = nope
you like cleaning = nope
you like roller coasters = yeah
you write in cursive or print = some combination of the two
you carry a donor card = no i'm a bad person
FOR OR AGAINST...
long distance relationships = against, but if you guys are really in love, that's peachy keen for you, do whatever you want.
using someone = dont do it, dont like it when its done to me
suicide = its a very selfish act but its understandable why people want to do it sometimes i guess
killing people = against, duh
teenage smoking = bad
premarital sex = well seeing as how marriage isn't legal for all of us, whatever.
driving drunk = people who do that really need to get their shit together and think about what they're doing
gay/lesbian relationship= goddamn homos :-P
soap operas = funny shit
FAVORITE...
food = a good salad, or granola and yogurt
song = currently really enjoying "checking my pulse" by alix olson
thing to do = have a good conversation with someone, dance
thing to talk about = sex, life, religion, girls
sport = softball to play, hockey, soccer, baseball to watch
drinks = water, baby
clothes = american eagle jeans and a t-shirt
movie = good will hunting
band/singer= alix olson, doria roberts, ani difranco, dispatch, virginia coalition, modest mouse, so many
holiday = st. patrick's day
new nerdy saying = i dont really have one???
HAVE YOU...
ever cried over a boy= yeah but not cuz i liked him
ever lied to someone = yea
ever been in a fist fight = when i was in karate
ever been arrested = nope
NUMBER...
of times I have been in love? = twice
of times I have had my heart broken?= twice (yup, same two people.)
of hearts I have broken? = more than i'd like to admit.
of girls I have kissed? = 6 i think
of boys I have kissed? = like 4
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 6 i think
of people I consider my enemies? = nobody
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = i have no idea
of scars on my body? = several
of things in my past that I regret? = none
FAVORITE... (yeah again...)
disney movie = hercules
scent = i like polo blue and hugo boss
word = awesome
nickname = puck ... thats what vanessa calls me
guy name = noah
girl name = rian
eye color = brown
flower = daffodil
RAMDOM
Spell your first name backwards= aynos ... yeah funny huh
The story behind your user name = im lazy and im irish
Are you straight? = uhhh im about as straight as a swirly straw
Where do you live? = frederick, md and amherst, mass.
4 words that sum you up = courageous, confident, dedicated, questioning
DESCRIBE YOUR -
Wallet = blue from american eagle
Hairbrush = dont got one
Toothbrush = orange and blue
Jewelry worn daily = my wisdom necklace, hemp bracelet, and rainbow anklet
Pillow cover= it says "hulk" and it's blue and green
Blanket = ralph lauren comforter with blue and white striped nautica duvet. i'm a label whore.
Coffee cup = i have several, my favorite has "starry night" on it
Sunglasses = i guess my blue shades?
Underwear = blue/black/white striped boxers
Shoes = my merrells
Handbag = ew
Favorite top = i like my AE charcoal colored polo with the red eagle, but i also enjoy my "everyone loves a buddhist boy" shirt from urban outfitters
CD in stereo right now = i think my roommate put tracy chapman in
What you are wearing now = merrell shoes, vintage american eagle jeans, brown and yellow striped belt from american eagle, blue and yellow emerson shirt
Hair = my natural color! brown with red highlights ... its got some wax in it right now, its all styled and purdy. lol.
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[17 Sep 2004|12:38am] |
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so i just completely flipped out because i dropped my cell in the toilet (don't ask, and yes the water was clean) ... and it's brand new and cost me WAY too much money ... i used a hair dryer on it and now it's sitting underneath a fan and seems to be recovering well, finally. oy.
but the cheesy quaker moment underneath all this is that i just ran down the hall, grabbed as many people as i could find, and made them hold hands and hold my cell phone in the light, saying "it's a quaker thing. someday i'll explain more but right now i just need you to be silent and visualize my phone working. when we're done i'll squeeze your hands."
they did it, and now my cell phone seems to be okay (crossing fingers), with the only problem being that every few minutes it beeps and says "hands free on" "hands free off."
good lord. the drama.
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[08 Sep 2004|08:17am] |
okay ... this little first year needs help and maybe y'all know!
Anyone know where these classes are?
- Anthro 103 (Human Variation and Origin) at 10:10
- Spanish 100 (i think) at 1:25
- Philosophy 100 at 2:30
anyone who's in these classes and happen to know where they are? i hate spire.
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[06 Sep 2004|07:55pm] |
i love this place.
i love my floor. the rest of the school can be a little sketchy, but my floor is awesome. my roommate is alright, and the other kids here are really cool.
this is going to be good, i think.
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[31 Aug 2004|10:31am] |
i really have too many clothes and they're completely disorganized. does anyone have any suggestions on how to pack them in an organized way? i have one box for winter clothes but other than that they're not divided into categories whatsoever and i don't want to have to go digging through these huge plastic bins because i don't know where something is ...
wow, i feel like a teenage girl. wait ...
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[28 Aug 2004|04:54pm] |
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almost everyone is gone now, except for courteny, elizabeth, and maggie. i've been hanging out with courteny some, and elizabeth and maggie and i are going out on monday, which will be fun. i'm looking forward to seeing them, i haven't spent enough time with them this summer!
still, though, everything feels strangely quiet. most of my friends have left for school and their away messages now say things like "i'm out partying" or "going to class" or "orientation" ... i feel almost left out, it's weird. i'm totally in summer mode, as I don't leave for another week, and classes don't start for a week and a half. I've been trying to get ahold of my roommate again, but to no avail. Neither of us are easy to reach. Oy. I have yet to tell my parents about the floor, but plan on doing so later this week. I had a mini breakdown this morning because my mom was hassling me about money, because I'd lost a receipt or two ... but I feel like I've done all of this on my own. I visited schools by myself, applied and picked them out by myself, did all the shopping by myself, found doctors up there by myself ... and my mom's acting like SHE'S all stressed out. grrr.
i am grateful that they're paying for school and that they're making an effort by driving with me up there, but other than that they haven't been too active in this process. oh well. it never bothered me too much until this morning, when it just got a little overwhelming. i just want to leave, and go, and get the first week over with. hearing about everyone else's first week is making me nervous! i think that after that, i'll be fine, but ... yeah. just that first week freaks me out.
my roommate says she's going to bring toy cars for the rug that i bought (it has roads on it and stuff, its really cool) ... woo hoo!
i really need a hair cut.
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hey y'all ...
i'm home from camp for 3 days off and 2 nights ...this is the second night. camp has been awesome. my co-counselors are maggie (who's a senior at brooklyn friends in new york), susannah (sophomore at parsons school of design in NYC), andrew (very outdoorsy guy, gonna be a freshman at UVM), and jack (from dupont circle - no he's not gay - who goes to university of pittsburgh). i have the 12-13 year olds this summer, the second oldest, and it's been interesting and a lot of fun. one of the girls in my cabin this session is also named sonya, how cool is that? yeah, pretty cool, that's right.
i've been having some health problems the last week. because i haven't been seeing a chiropractor as regularly as i should, i got some pretty severe migraine headaches that landed me in the hospital twice in the past week. now i'm on pretty heavy-duty muscle relaxants and anti-nausea medicine for my days off. i saw my chiropractor at home both yesterday and today, and although he's concerned, it's nothing that can't be treated, luckily. tomorrow i'm going to go see the hot-shot chiropractor in winchester that i'll probably be seeing weekly from now on. this medication is frustrating as all hell, because it completely knocks me out. right now i'm okay because i *just* took it, but after about 30 minutes, i'll be pretty fucking tired. lillie came by today to see me. i can't drive because of these meds, which means i wasn't able to spend nearly as much time with her as planned for this set of days off, or with any of my other friends, for that matter. i miss lillie, i hardly see/talk to her at all now, and it's weird, it feels unnatural.
but anyway ... camp is awesome and i made the right decision to go. the last week aside, i feel so much healthier physically, emotionally, and spiritually. the kids are so much fun and i love being with them and working with them, and planning out trips and art workshops that they'll enjoy. it's the best job in the world. incredibly hard and draining, but the best nonetheless.
i miss you all. if you haven't gotten mail from me, i'm working on it.
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[14 Jun 2004|09:00am] |
at camp, for a female counselor ...
i don't know what to do. i love camp. a bunch of other counselors called me last night and asked why i wasn't coming back and said they really hoped that i still would.
but my brother needs me, and i want to be with lillie, and all my friends. i know it's possible to do both because i would have days off but it would be difficult.
i've been so depressed just being in this house, though, i can't stand being at home. camp is a healthy place for me, it really is. and i love those kids, i love the job, and there's no way i could find a job i enjoy so much at home ...
what do i do?
god this is maddening.
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